Woe is Me..

I guess things come in bunches these days. It seems like everyone around me is pregnant. I think it is wonderful, especially those people like myself that have been through such loss. But part of me just wants it to be me. Two really good forum friends are expecting, and a few other forum girls. I am so happy for them. I wish them nothing but the best, and I cant wait to see their little bundles. I guess I am just feeling down on myself. But that is all about to change. I can feel it. I have a solution to this weight issue that is keeping me so down. And to top it off the nutritionist finally called today.

I see her on the 19th. Hopefully she will be able to help me. Although I know that part of my issues are not at all related to food, and that if I don't fix the underlining problems, then the weight issue is not going to be solved either. So I have resolved that I really need to get into a therapy type situation other then the one I am currently in. That reality hit me this morning when I was trying to fix some breakfast and had the urge to get in the car and drive to BK because I was being lazy. I did not do it. I fixed myself some eggs and made them extra special with some cheese.

I have to get a grip on all of this. Im hoping this woman can teach me about eating healthy and set me on a plan. Accountability, is exactly what I need. I need to be accountable for my actions. I need to have someone to check in with. Like when I was on weight watchers. Having to answer to someone and myself week after week really helps me. Im hoping meeting with this nutritionist will help.

I did the whole purge, detox off sugar thing this weekend. I felt ok except for a headache. I still have the headache but have been taking plenty of tylenol.

Give me a sense of support when you talk to me, I need it now more then ever friends..