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Saturday, March 01, 2008

when i slack i slack

as i sit here waiting for traci and the kids to come over for family dinner
i surf through the dozen or so blogs that i *try* to keep up with and realize
just how much of a slacker i am with my own blog. i find time everyday to myspace and facebook, and check out this dribble but i cant seem to ever find time to keep up with my own life.

this working woman stuff has really taken me over. dont get me wrong i really love my job. i work with a great bunch of people and the good days definitely outweigh the bad, but i just dont ever seem to have time.

ya see most days for me start between 2 and 4 AM. i do my 15 mins of meditation, take my shower, shove a waffle down my throat, pop some pills (bp meds people) and im off for my commute. i use the 30 min drive to work to clear my head, blast some tunes and sing my lungs out. its just the perfect amount of a release i need to start my day.

im home daily between 2-3 pm, but boy once the shoes come off and my fat ass hits the couch im done for. things like housework and cooking have gone to the birds and i often spend my days off trying to play catch up if i can drag myself away from the dvr long enough. im in bed reading by 6:30 or 7:00 trying to catch some sleep to start all over the next day...

so you see time doesnt really allow for me to have for myself. i try though, i really do. this weekend im off so i spent my morning trying to get things done, hit the recycle center, drop off the 2 months worth of recycling that has accumulated on my patio, hit the farmers market for some fresh produce, that i vow to use this week to prepare some meals for my loves. i have to find a balance in this working thing that allows me some more time to just do...

its a miracle if i cook one meal per week, although im in harris teeter and awful lot buying stuff to do so... the plan is genuine, just putting it to use is where i falter. i set a goal today to find time, less in front of the tv when i come in from work and more on myself.

the weather is starting to really get warm here and i need need need to be out in the sun. im convinced it is the only thing that keeps me sane and less depressed. im going back to walking my complex, doing alittle of this and that, and far less couch warming. im sure if i move more, and sit less, i will be less tired all the time, and no doubt it will help allieviate some of the stress in my life.

well im sure by now i have lost most of my loyal readers, it goes hand in hand when you put your blog on hold for 6 months, not that there were many before. but i will try and update more often, i pinky promise. although there isnt all that much excitement in my life anyhow, im sure i can come up with a thing or two to right about

for now, peace out people, drop me a line, let me know your still out there