you are what you continue to be

the title speaks for itself.... you become the person you continue to allow yourself to be...not too long ago (several years) i lived my life in a state of depression, i didnt care about anything but what had happened to me, and what i could have done to prevent it... then one day i woke up and realized i wasn't going to go anywhere in life if i kept allowing myself to be miserable.... there was this turning point, not that i can pin point it now , but there came a point when i realized enough is enough and i needed to move on...

to a point i have these moments often, of course none as grand as the original, most of the time its little things, like im not going to complain about this or that, im not going to worry about this or that... about a week ago i decided that everytime i have a gripe with someone or something, i am going to find a solution to the problem rather then worry about the problem itself... im going to take the rein on things and lead by example, find the solution and then share it with everyone around me...

i do realize i cant do and be everything or everyone, but at the same time i have a really hard time letting things continue on when i know they are not right... i have to figure out a way to find a balance without jeopordizing who i am... make sense?  in alot of ways im just a "let things run smooth" kinda gal... i tend to put the high expectations on others that i do for myself... i also feel that everyone should be trying the best they can... and when i get let down i end up being frustrated, so from now on i vow no more frustration, instead i will support the problem, find the solution, and share it

in other news... spring is finally starting to make its way into my world and i couldnt be happier... i love the sun, the warm afternoons, sitting on the porch reading or painting, or tending to the garden...

speaking of which... i dont know what i want to grow this year... my cucumbers did amazing last year, so i will definately be doing those, and those little yellow tomatos were great... i can firmly tell you i wont be doing anything upside down, as that really didnt work all the great, unless i find some tips on ways ot really make it work, im going to stick to upright planting... phil of course wants some peppers so i am going to do a flower box of those for him... im thinking of adding two more flower patio boxes this year, since the smaller fruits like cherry tomatos and mini peppers do really well in them with the sun shining on them for hours at a time...

im also considering doing a rubbermaid container with those small watermelons... i will have to research them more for this area and see if they would work on my porch, but i would love love love to have some of them grow...i just love having my patio garden and watching everything sprout up, and in the long run it saves me so much $$ on fresh produce from the market

well thats all i got for now, time to back the bus up into the bed and call it a night...