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Thursday, March 24, 2005

3-23-05

Ok so yesterday absolutely sucked. I went for the ultrasound and found out more bad news. First I still have retained placenta, so I will have to have a D&C to remove that. And I do indeed have fibroids. 4 that they saw, but none are pointing inside of my uterus so that is a good sign. Tomorrow I have an appointment with my OB to get the results, that they already told me, and to set up the surgery. I am really pissed off that my body never works the right way. And I am pissed that the the hospital did not notice a piece of placenta missing. Now for the past 11 weeks I have been getting no where as far as recovery, because I will have to do it all over again. But hopefully I can get right back on track and my periods will be normal again. I really want to get this weight loss thing in control so I can be top notch health and get pregnant again. Hopefully!!!

So Im feeling optimistic that things will all work themselves out. I really want to get my emotions and life back. I haven't been that nice lately. I know Phil understands, but I still feel bad. Easter is in a few days, im looking forward to a nice day with Cathy and the Girls. They are getting so big.

I cant believe that in probably less then a month Traci is going to have the baby. I dont know how I am going to handle it all. I know that it is normal to feel sad about my situation but I hope that I can be ok with her as well.

Well that its for now
Tara

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