3-22-05

Today-
Lots of errands to do. I didnt get much done around the house. Spent time playing in PI.

Phil tried to do something romantic but I wasn't not in the mood. He brought home this large rose and lit some candles in the room and then put the rose on the bed. I appreciate his effort, I really do, but today just was not a good day to ML. Tomorrow I have the ultrasound to check the fibroids, Im hoping that nothing will come of it.

I did a little bit of crying today. I was thinking about Michael. I really want to try again to have a baby but I am a little bit scared. I really do want to try again but what if something were to happen again.

I ate absolutely horrible today, I dont understand why I cant seem to stick to this diet. I am having such a hard time. I am measuring most of the time, but today I ate really bad. I have to do something. I havent done the Crunch tape in 3 days. I have to get back on schedule with that. I dont know why I cant seem to do it... Guess one day something will click.. Until then I am going to work hard on sticking to it.

It has been One month, two weeks, six days, 1 hour, 53 minutes and 30 seconds since I quit smoking!!. 576 cigarettes that I did not smoke, saving $119.72. Life saved: 2 days, 0 minutes. I am so PROUD of myself!!!!!